Not too long after I made my decision about where to take class I found yet ANOTHER class I want to take. THIS is why I didn't audit more - every class I find out about I want to take, lol. Maybe this class is something I can take further down the road, but I think it might be off the table completely because I think it's twice a week and one of the time slots is really bad for me.
I know people who are in two or three (expensive) classes at a time - how do they afford it? How? Actually, now that I think about it I've done two at a time. It's hard - time wise and money wise.
I have to stop finding classes I wanted to take, lol! Actually there was one class I audited that I didn't care for. Liked what was being taught in the class, liked the teacher, didn't like the people in the class. Couldn't put my finger on it. It almost seemed like no one wanted to be there and they all disliked each other. I did talk to someone else who audited the same class and they got a similar vibe. Then I think I figured it out - they weren't friendly to newcomers. I don't know what it was - were they judgmental? threatened? feeling superior? or just so into preparing for their own scenes that they came off as stand-offish? Whatever it was, I've never been in such and unwelcoming class environment before.
I've only known of one other class like that and I wasn't in the class. I knew people in the class and heard it was very cliquish and if the people in the clique didn't think you were good, or didn't like you, forget it. I think the clique actually got a few people kicked out of the class for these reasons. Instead of the teacher actually helping them get better (*gasp!* what a concept! a teacher actually TEACHING!) they would get kicked out of class. And they found a very clever way of doing it to cover their backs. Now that I think about it, that's lame, if you really think someone doesn't belong in a class just be honest with them, jeez! I know people who have been told straight up they don't belong in a particular class.
So I started my new class. Wow, I think this is going to be pretty intense. INTENSE! And they start you off slow in the class too! I feel like I'm trying to figure out stuff in this class right now. It seems like it's one of those classes that strips away everything - like things you may have relied on or used in the past - and cuts to the chase. I haven't yet figured out how to use all that for auditioning or when I book something, but I'm sure that will come. I've only been in one class! Either I am going to get a lot out of this class or in 2 months I'm going to be like, okay, this is useless. I think this is going to be one of the most challenging classes I've taken.
I do have to say I was very nervous at the start of class but didn't feel bad about anything I did, even when it wasn't good. I also felt like I was very uninhibited in the work I did. It was a feeling of not caring if I completely failed. And I didn't seem to care what other people thought. Usually I get caught up in "am I doing the exercise right?" but I didn't do that. I actually felt really good about my work. Was it my best work? Probably not. Were there things I needed to work on? Definitely. But overall I felt good.
I was telling someone that I was trying to decide between this class and another one I audited. I felt like that class was the one I "wanted" to take, and this class was the one I "needed" to take. I think I made the right decision.
And if I end up hating it a month from now I can always leave and take the other class, lol!
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