One year ago today...

...I made a decision that changed the course of 2010 for me.

I was supposed to do something that night and almost canceled. It was Wednesday, I had Power Group and was going to have to go to work late. Then something that rarely happens happened - I got a commercial audition! From a workshop I had attended that weekend. That means getting to work even later. Considered canceling the plans for that night. I remember sitting in my car outside of the casting office where I had my audition looking at an email on my iPhone about the plans for that night and having to get the address of where I was supposed to go. I remember thinking, do I send an email saying I need the address, or send an email saying I need to cancel? I decided to get the address and go. After my audition I got an email with the address and telling me I have to be there 45 min. earlier than I thought. I need to confirm. One last chance to cancel.... I confirmed. And that set something in motion...

Okay, technically, this was set in motion in November and with a few emails the previous week, but this was one the first of several key moments over the next three weeks where I made a decision that changed something. At the time it didn't feel like a big decision at all. It felt minor. Important, but minor. Little did I know that one minor decision would have a huge impact on me.

I made the right decision, I know I did, it's probably one of the best decisions I've made. But it hasn't always been easy. Overall it's been good, really good, and I know things have worked out the way they're supposed to, but there's a part of me that wonders, what if I canceled? I spent a large part of last summer wishing I could go back in time grab the phone out of my hand and not confirm that email. Has it been worth it?

But whenever I see the positive affect this has had on me and my acting...well, that makes it all worth while.

I still have those emails in a folder somewhere. Can't believe that was a year ago...